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| Hello out there, to those of you who occasionally visit Xanga anymore. I admit that the only reason I've signed on was because I got an email alert from my subscriptions, telling me that MrKola had written.
So I'll try to be brief about stuff, not sure what I've already written so I'll just start by following up on my last post.
I'm over that old girl, she made some choices that I couldn't condone so she and I stopped being friends. I moved back to Big Rapids in February, spent a few months looking for a job and landed one at Wal Mart's Electronics department, which I give thanks to Keifer and his friend Joe, Joe being someone who was already working in that department at Wal Mart.
Not much is going on. In April I met a wonderful girl named Mindi, and we've been dating for a couple months. I'm not attending school this Fall but I really feel like I should go to school, so I'm looking at programs at Ferris and am planning to go in the Winter. Hopefully I can find something fulfilling and worthwile.
I don't really have anything philosophical or interesting to say, though it's great to look back and see memories of my past with the things I've written. Things I went through, the way I thought, the way I viewed the world, the way I viewed myself. So much has changed, though the past remains the same and it'll always remain a part of me. A person can know who you are but sometimes it might take years to understand the road that each of us has traveled. | | |
| I'm bummed out.
Trying to figure out where I am with a girl.
One moment it seems she's into me, the next it's like we're strictly friends.
I don't know what to do.
I wanna talk, but I don't wanna force an opportunity.
Though we hang out all the time, I feel so alone.
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| wow, it's amazing to realize how much you've changed over the years. i feel a little embarrassed after re-reading all of my old bloggings.
trying to keep things alive with xanga, been working on some music and poetry. i hope to have something satisfactory to post in the near future.
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| while out for a drive with friends, one asked to look through my cds. she picked one and set it to track 11. it didn't take long for me to recognize that it was "Your Guardian Angel" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. but it had been a long time since i heard the song, and for some reason it really spoke to me, so i made a mental note to get on xanga and post it.
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
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| What can I say? I'm alive and thats almost the best I can say. I've been living in Muskegon for around three months now and things are generally mundane. I work at Meijer and it's pretty much the same day in and day out. I can't complain, though, because it's a steady job with a paycheck and I do like the people I work with.
School starts September 2, only a week from now. I'm pretty much ready, though not quite mentally. The summer has gone by way too quickly and I haven't yet gotten to do much of what I wanted to do. Heck, I only live a ten-minute drive from the beach and not once have I gone swimming. All I've really done was work, I've only spent time with friends maybe two or three times.
But I guess that's life- you make sacrifices and work hard so you can enjoy your future, and since college is only for a few years I haven't abandoned hope just yet. As long as I can make friends and take time for myself, I think I'll be alright.
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